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I just don't have it in me anymore

It's been nearly 2 weeks since my last post. I can't remember having gone that long before without posting at least something. Even after declaring, almost 2 years ago to the day, I wasn't going to post much anymore.

The truth is, I simply can't find the motivation to write about much anymore. I couldn't even get motivated about yesterdays bombings in Boston, and I could have found plenty to comment about, had I the desire.

Maybe it's the weather, or aybe I've reached that, so called, 5th stage of grief, realizing there's nothing I can do about the inevitable. So why bother?

I think it goes something [exactly] like this
Que Sera Sera,
What ever will be will be,
The future's not ours to see,
Que Sera Sera
What will be, will be

Who knows if I'll post again? I probably will. (I have to keep my advertisers happy after all :) ). I just don't know when.

Comments

Gerry said…
That's right just give up! Good plan or you could just some better balls!
Marc said…
I don't think of it as giving up. It's more like an awakening. I've just been enlightened.

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