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This is all so very humbling

It hasn't even been one day, and already I'm going stir crazy.

The morning started out OK. Edie was here, and I was getting all sorts of attention. But that ended pretty quick, and after Edie left, it was only downhill from there.

Now I just feel like I'm sick. Even worse, I felt like an invalid as I was wheeled to my echo cardiogram late this afternoon.

My only salvation is having Edie's smartphone and access to the Internet, but even that's is starting to lose its appeal.

I'm just not sure how much more of this I can take.

BIG SIGH
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Patti Earhart said…
Marc, I had never stayed in a hospital until 2009. Treatment to prepare me for an auto transplant made me so weak I had to use a walker. Very scary and uncomfortable. Bed sucked and I had no one willing to visit me. I feel your pain. I went from feeling fine to invalid in 2 weeks. At least I wasn't facing scary surgery. I wish you the best. I never had the transplant and my MCL is stable thanks to Rituxan.
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Marc said…
Thanks Patti. Yeah the surgery is scary, but I don't think a transplant is any less scary. I wouldn't want either, but.......

Still it's not so much the operation, as it is the waiting. But then again, I'm sure that will all change once the waiting is over.
11:44 PM
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