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I hope I made the right decision

Well today I decided to announce to my realm of aerospace that I would no longer be performing my duties as the Director of Quality and Metallurgy at Arcturus Manufacturing. It wasn't exactly how I planned it, but when the controller at my company called asking about my application for state disability, it just sort of mushroomed into that.

This isn't something I decided on the spur of the moment though. I had been contemplating this for several months, but now that it's done I'm starting to have some doubts. Arcturus has been a part of my life for over 25 years, and now it's all over?

Even one of the guys in the shop called, indicating how great it was working with me, and telling me how much he had learned from me. I'm sure it was just platitudes, but now that I've made my intentions clear, and I assume everyone else at the company now knows it, the reality of it is starting to settle in. It's just so hard to imagine. It all seems so final.

I did want this ( at least I thought I did), and financially Edie and I should be OK. We've got a decent nest egg, and that along with a year of state disability (which was approved, but quickly ended because of an error by Kaiser, and resubmitted yesterday), plus Social Security (even if my SSDI isn't approved, which could be problematic since I haven't had any treatment yet), we should still be able to maintain our same lifestyle, for as long as I expect we'll be around.

Still it isn't helping to relieve this knot I have in my gut, nor this sinking feeling that I may have made the wrong decision. :(
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Ed said…
It cannot be the wrong decision! Just gotta figure out what fun things to to do with your time . Time to move on, Pal. - rollin down the river, no more "workin for the man every night and day"
11:27 PM
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