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I just lost focus

When I first started this blog, I didn't intend it to be an outlet for my political beliefs. It was intended only to be about me, describing my experiences dealing with MCL (Mantle Cell Lymphoma), and educating others about some of the pitfalls dealing with the US health care system, so that others could benefit from many of the mistakes I've made.

Of course along the way, the blog strayed from its original intent, mostly discussing my exploits on the bike, and dealing with the weather here in southern California, interspersed with the occasional diatribe on the US health care system. Most recently (due to a lack of inspiration) there were even a few posts pointing out how little people in the US really understand our health care system, and the lunacy [IMO] of those few individuals employing alternative treatments.

The problem is, the more I went down that road, the more frustrated I became, ultimately leading to my previous post where I indicated I just had enough. But more than anything I think I just needed a break. There have just been way too many things going on in my life lately. Dealing with my MCL for the past [nearly] 8 years, waiting for the next shoe to drop, dealing with changes occurring at the the company I've worked for over 20 years after being purchased by a MUCH larger company, and the continual dealings with unreasonable customers [and suppliers], among other things, just started to take its toll.

So here I sit, having calmed down considerably, deciding it's time to break my silence.

So in case anyone is interested, I'm still feeling fine [mostly], and I'm still managing to get 150+ miles per week on the bike (despite the rain, and otherwise lousy weather). I just have no intention of dwelling on issues I have no control over, instead choosing to focus more on the positive [hopefully not mundane] things in life.

Hopefully it will make for a better and more interesting blog!
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Gerry said…
Just worry about getting rid of the CLICKING coming from your bike, It's driving the rest of us crazy.... Glad your back on the air!
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