Skip to main content

More bad days than good

It all started last Tuesday night, racing at Eldorado Park.  It was fast, and while I stayed in till the finish, there were a number of times I almost quit.

Then on Wednesday, I went for my usual morning ride to the coffee shop. That's not normally a very fast or hard ride, although it can be at times, so I wasn't feeling too bad, but I really think it was the ride to Glendora Mountain Road on Friday, that has totally wiped me out.

So wiped out, that on the Saturday ride (aka the Hammer Zone), I got dropped almost before we started. I was totally demoralized, and ended up going home to mope and do nothing the rest of the day, and deciding not to ride Sunday and Monday to try and recoup my energy.

I'm sure everyone will agree that was a good decision (you have to listen to your body, everyone always tells me), but unless I have something else to do, if I don't ride, I feel like I've missed out on something, and things just seem to go down hill from there.

Then of course I had to go to work today, which presents additional challenges, some welcome, but a few not so much.

I don't know, maybe I've been riding too much lately (last month I put on 965 miles, and so far this month I'm already approaching 700 miles, and it's only the 22nd), but whatever it is, I better get over it soon, because right now I'm just not feeling much like doing anything.

Even getting up to head home from work, seems like a chore, and I'm sure not motivated to race Eldo tonight, but I may just have to force myself.
Labels:

Comments

Becky said…
Have you tried chocolate?
5:44 AM
Marc said…
Yeah, but I think that only makes things worse.
5:45 AM
Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Fatigue! Part II - Maybe it is real?

Or it's actually Motivational Deficiency Disorder, MoDeD (pronounced Mo-Dee-Dee) for short. In a report this week by Roy Moynihan who reports for the British Medical Journal Austrailian scientists may have come across the reason for extreme laziness . The condition is claimed to affect up to one in five Australians and is characterised by overwhelming and debilitating apathy. Neuroscientists at the University of Newcastle in Australia say that in severe cases motivational deficiency disorder can be fatal, because the condition reduces the motivation to breathe. Neurologist Leth Argos is part of the team that has identified the disorder, which can be diagnosed using a combination of positron emission tomography and low scores on a motivation rating scale, previously validated in elite athletes. "This disorder is poorly understood," Professor Argos told the BMJ. "It is underdiagnosed and undertreated." Who knew? Maybe I have MoDeD, from my attempts to become a...
Post a Comment
Read more

My concerns reaffirmed today

When I was first diagnosed with MCL, I pretty much read just about everything I could get my hands on, I attended various conferences, and I talked to anyone who would listen. One of the most important lessons I learned, and which I've mentioned numerous times before was No one cares more about you than you. But in addition to that, I learned to fear the drug Doxorubicin , AKA Adriamycin, Doxil, Hydroxydoxorubicin, or more affectionately the Red Devil. Besides being a deadly chemical, as is the case with most chemotherapy drugs, it is one of the few chemotherapy drugs known to cause permanent heart damage. I even heard Dr. Sandra Horning , a noted Stanford lymphoma specialist, state at the first lymphoma conference I attended in LA, there was no evidence Doxorubicin provided any added benefit to chemotherapy protocols. This was music to my ears, since Doxorubicin is very common in most lymphoma treatment protocols. And even though Dr. Horning has since changed her tune [which my sk...
Post a Comment
Read more

You can't make this shit up. Really!

We had been planning to see a taping of Undateable Live for a few weeks now, and we actually made it there tonight, but on the way something awful happened. A terrorist attack in Paris. Now it might seem heartless of me to be thinking about my misfortune, having to wait over 2 hours for our driver ( the show was cancelled) ), to pick us up, when so many others are suffering an unimaginable fate, but it is what it is. If nothing else, this few hours has provided a lot of time to think [blog], what might have been, if it weren't for the likes of Republicans, and the spawning of the two individuals I blame most for the state of the world today, George W Bush, and Dick Cheney. Those two, in only 8 short years, managed to do more to destabilize the world, creating the chaos there is today, than anyone could have ever imagined. (What Saddam Hussein must be thinking now.) If anyone deserves blame for the carnage in Paris today, it is George W. Bush and Dick Cheney, and they should b...
Post a Comment
Read more