Well, here it is Saturday morning, and it's raining, so you all know what that means. No bike ride and another post.
The last couple of days have not been so good. It seems the cumulative effect of Edie's treatment regimen is taking its toll.
Fridays are typically very draining for Edie, consisting of dialysis in the morning, then chemo in the afternoon, but yesterday seemed especially draining. After getting home around 4:30 PM, all Edie wanted for dinner was a chocolate milkshake from McDonalds, and then she was off to bed.
I should say she tried to get some sleep, as the peripheral neuropathy, and overall body aching made that difficult to accomplish. Fortunately she has managed to get some sleep, and is currently asleep as I write this post.
Hopefully all this sleep will rejuvenate her enough (like last Saturday, when she felt well enough to go out for dinner) to go to a friends 60th birthday party tonight.
I used to think the AS9100 audits, I go through at work every year, were the most stressful thing I would ever have to endure in my life, and while they are stressful, they pale in comparison to watching the misery Edie is going through right now.
Watching someone you love go through such misery, and feeling helpless do anything about it, except for holding her hand, an occasional hug, or cuddling in bed, is by far the most stressful thing anyone will ever have to endure in their entire lifetime.
BIG SIGH :cry:
The last couple of days have not been so good. It seems the cumulative effect of Edie's treatment regimen is taking its toll.
Fridays are typically very draining for Edie, consisting of dialysis in the morning, then chemo in the afternoon, but yesterday seemed especially draining. After getting home around 4:30 PM, all Edie wanted for dinner was a chocolate milkshake from McDonalds, and then she was off to bed.
I should say she tried to get some sleep, as the peripheral neuropathy, and overall body aching made that difficult to accomplish. Fortunately she has managed to get some sleep, and is currently asleep as I write this post.
Hopefully all this sleep will rejuvenate her enough (like last Saturday, when she felt well enough to go out for dinner) to go to a friends 60th birthday party tonight.
I used to think the AS9100 audits, I go through at work every year, were the most stressful thing I would ever have to endure in my life, and while they are stressful, they pale in comparison to watching the misery Edie is going through right now.
Watching someone you love go through such misery, and feeling helpless do anything about it, except for holding her hand, an occasional hug, or cuddling in bed, is by far the most stressful thing anyone will ever have to endure in their entire lifetime.
BIG SIGH :cry:
Comments
You're doing more than some would even think to do.
Just ask my husband who had to live with his mother because his (now ex) wife couldn't handle HIS chemo!
Big Hug for the both of you.
I can't even begin to understand how terribly difficult your situation must be. Just the feelings of frustration, helplessness and wanting to take on all of her burden and not having the ability to do so must be overwhelming. However, just being there for her, holding her hand, giving the hug and occasional cuddle are all pretty powerful medicine. I hope she is feeling stronger this week. Bless both of you.