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It's been 4 days

And I can't seem to come up with anything to post about.

Ideas keep popping into my head, but before I can get them down in writing, they disappear.

I can easily rationalize the reasons for this, like worrying about Edie, and the possibility I may need treatment soon. It could even be the weather (although that seems to be improving finally), but none of that makes it any easier to deal with.

Even playing golf, eating and drinking fine wine, doesn't impart the same pleasures they once did.

The only thing that can still get me going is riding my bike, which I attribute to the fact when I'm on my bike, I'm exerting so much energy, and I am so focused, that for the time I'm on the bike, I forget about everything else. The only problem is, I can only go so hard and for so long, and eventually have to return to reality.

So here I am, back in reality, with nothing to say.

Hopefully that will change soon!
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Becky said…
You're a warrior, Marc, and like any good warrior, you focus on the battle.

But remember not to lose sight of the reason for the battle. The battle is to live, not to merely exist.

Each day we live is a battle won over death. So at the end of the day remember to enjoy the spoils of your war. Good food, the company of a woman who loves you and friends who care deeply for you.

Tonight, at sunset, I'll be watching my brother-in-laws ashes scattered at sea.
3:15 AM
Marc said…
A warrior???

Hardly, although I appreciate the encouragement.
12:26 AM
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