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I'm tired

Lately (and as I previously posted), I seem to be stuck in a rut, having very little interest in doing many of the things I used to enjoy doing. Eating, drinking wine and even golfing just don't seem to generate the same enthusiasm they once did.

Part of the reason is my concern for Edie. Her treatments seem to be taking a toll on her taste buds and appetite, leaving her less enthusiastic about eating and drinking wine. (it's no fun drinking wine by yourself.)

Then there's the uncertaintly I face, as treatment time appears to be approaching ever so rapidly for me, as well as the fact my golf game sucks!

But mostly, I'm just tired.

I'm tired of the polarization of America. I'm tired of the influence pedaling by special interests, looking out only for what is best for themselves, rather than what is best for the country.

I'm tired of being identified as living in a red or blue state, and labeled either Republican (conservative) or Democrat (liberal).

I'm an American, short and sweet, and I care about the United States, and those living in the United States, above everything and everyone else.

I'm tired of the proponents of the war in Iraq, who have never spent a day in harms way, sending thousands of young Americans to fight and die in a foreign land, and accusing opponents of the war, who have put their lives on the line, in Iraq, Viet Nam and other war arenas, as being unpatriotic and supporting terrorism.

I'm tired of living in a culture of fear, perpetuated by proponents of the war, in order to justify the continuation of a failed policy, and who by doing so, have already handed the terrorists a victory.

I'm tired of the fact that so many in this country, have so little concern for their fellow man, they think health care should be treated as a commodity distributed according to the abililty to pay, as opposed to a social service distributed according to medical need.

I'm tired of opponents of universal health care coverage, citing only extreme examples from Canada and the UK, as representative of the ills of such policies, yet at the same time neglecting to mention all the similar and even worse problems existing within the US health care system.

It's just the same arguments over and over and over again. Sometimes they dress them up in different clothing, but the message is always the same. It's a message of special interests, and I'm tired of it, and I don't need to worry about it anymore.

If most Americans approve of wasting billions of dollars, sending its youth to fight and die in a foreign country, while neglecting real problems and dangers existing at home, then I am fine with that.

If most Americans are content with the knowledge they are only one lost job away from not being able to afford health care, or one serious illness away from facing bankruptcy, then I can live with that also.

And if most Americans are satisfied with a government controlled by special interests conveying the arrogant belief, the US is the moral authority for the world, that we are right, and everyone one else in the world is wrong, then so be it.

Who should I worry about it, when I don't need to?

I'm going for a bike ride!

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