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Greetings! And how are you today?

Whether it's when you arrive at work in the morning, or meet someone on the street, the first thing you do is exchange greetings. Typically, after you've said "hello", "good morning", or some other standard address, most people will also add "how are you doing?". You may not even know the person, but still that's the usual greeting.

When that happens to me, I typically respond fine or wonderful, or something else along those lines. That isn't always the case, but I don't believe people actually expect an in depth or negative response, when they greet you in that manner, so with a few exceptions, I put on that happy face, and pretend there is nothing wrong.

But that is what is so great about having your own blog. You don't always have to put on a happy face. You can write about your actual thoughts, without worrying about boring someone to death with your problems. If people are interested they can read on, or they can choose to ignore you, which incidentally most people do.

So if you're not interested, this is your cue to stop reading! Otherwise....

Even though I recently wrote about seldom writing about my MCL, because I'm just not sick enough, today is one of those days I don't feel like putting on a happy face.

I just received the results of my latest monthly blood counts, and my lymphocytes are back up, and my hemoglobin back down to just about where they were 2 months ago. Plus my platelets seem to be on a steady, albeit very gradual decline.

So while the results aren't disastrous, by any stretch of the imagination, with everything else that's been going on, including the fact that it's colder than normal for this time of year (so much for global warming), they don't offer any encouragement either.

Maybe I should stop getting blood tests so often. I just don't know anymore. Lately I seem to be in a real state of confusion. I'm still feeling relatively fine, but while I have always hated winter time, it seems particularly bleak this time around.

I knew I shouldn't have written about not feeling sick. I'm way too superstitious for that!
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Becky said…
Yes, you are way too superstitious.

I'm not a doctor, but I'm thinking it's stress and winter related. You're worried about Edie, I'm sure work as well, and that doesn't help, but it can't be helped. Ironic.

In a couple more weeks it will be the Winter Solstice, the longest night of the year, and then before you know it spring will be upon us.

And with spring comes new life and hope.

I'm hoping it will reinvigorate us all.
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