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I guess I'm just not sick enough

About two months ago, I posted about how a fellow blogger, who has CLL, nearly always relates his post to his CLL.

When I started this blog a year ago, I talked about my disease, and many of the problems I encountered along the way, not so much because I felt any sicker back then, but because I had something to say.

Now I seem to be running out of those "pearls of wisdom", and tend to post mostly about my day to day life, as boring as that may be to some.

The reason for that, I have come to believe is, I just don't feel sick. I haven't had any treatment yet, and there is none anticipated in the near future, so how can I possibly talk about being a patient?

I doubt that many people, if any, would consider that a bad thing, but as a patient blogger over at The Medical Blog Network, I feel as though I am shirking my responsibility, when I don't write about how it feels to be a patient.

It also makes me jealous of those other patient bloggers, in a perverse sort of way, not because I want to feel sick or start treatment any time soon, but because the information David and others provide is useful to anyone who is a patient.

Oh well, such is life, and even though I love David's blog, and always look forward to his next post, I still take solace in the fact that being a patient isn't just about what it's like to be sick, it's also about how to enjoy the positive aspects of life, and not to dwell on the negative.

Comments

Becky said…
You know, this has got to be your strangest topic so far. Because you are sick enough and/or are waiting to get sicker you have plenty of interesting things to talk about in the mean time. You sound almost as if you feel guilty that you don't have something morbid to talk about. oy gevalt!

You are a great conversationalist. Our discussion on Carter, Bush and other idiotsn in the Whie House today is a great example of the wealth of knowledge you have that you can share in addition to your illness.

It's your blog, write about whatever you want. Like, how come if I say I don't believe in God I'm called an Athiest and yet if I say I don't believe in Odin I am not placed into any category?
Marc said…
The strangest topic so far? Really?
Hesham said…
Hi Mark,

Thanks for stopping my blog and commenting. I have answered your question on the blog, but I am not sure that you get the answer emailed to you! I have just started this blog a few weeks ago and I am using a template, so I cannot really control all the functions as much as I would like to. If you don̢۪t receive the answer I can forward it by email to you.

I would like to comment on your post saying that I actually like that you don̢۪t identify yourself with the disease. There are more to life than being sick, even if afflicted by a serious illness. I have worked as a surgeon in a cancer institute as an intern, and I can tell you that we could bet on the outcome of a patient̢۪s surgery depending on his/her attitude. Many with very serious illnesses walk out with successful outcome; others never made it because they gave up before we even started.

How to deal with medicine and diseases is sometimes a difficult issue; as a matter of fact I am posting tomorrow in my blog about how should I talk about medicine. Feel free to stop by and comment on it, I would love to hear from everyone who is interested.

Finally I wish you all the luck and I hope you prevail over your MCL.
Becky said…
See I told you so!!!

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